I'm lost, I feel so totally depressed...

Let some lonely little bullet hit me and kill me

Most of my nowadays problems is money and and the biggest barrier that doesn't let me do money online is a lack of some good bank account with online access where I will be able to receive and make wire-transfers. It seems that less and less people accept epassporte.
For example yesterday I wanted to buy two passes from Submit Passes and it turned out that they don't accept epass anymore. So I just thought that maybe I will be able to use my virtual visa but they have said me in the email that they won't accept virtual visa too.
I can't use many mainstream and adult sponsors because of lack of this account too, here where I live it's impossible to cash foreign checks.

I have to sign tons of papers and I have to wait 3 months! And many checks last only for 2 months. So they are not valid after that period..
I need at least to find something where I will be able to receive and make wires. I need it so badly...
I live in a small town in the south of Poland and polish banks suck, they cost much, and share everything with tax agency and other agencies. I don't want to escape from taxes of course but this would cost me too much anyway, much more to pay than I currently earn. Why? Because of the health insurance and other stuff that I would be obligated to pay. (Not to mention that our government want to delegalize adult, now it's legal yet...)
I have written to a few offshore banks (one cyprus, two swiss and two US) but they all require me to go to their countries for opening an account with them. It's imposible for me cause I don't have money for such trips and I cannot go to most of them wihout many papers and waiting weeks/months

I can only travel freely in the EU countries.
btw does anybody know any good bank that will let me to open an account without need to go the country where it's based and without need to depositing more than 400$ to it?
Each day I ask myself why I am still here, bothering with this all and I live in the house with people that treat me like shit, damn I hate them...
I should go somewhere to Great Britain, take a normal job, no metter what, I could even wash toilets, rent a room and the rest of my time spend on my online work. Probably I am still here because of my girlfriend... I can't imagine months without her :/
