Sarah_webinc with all due respect but...

450 bigots

It's good that she's back on the pink horse.

2nd.
But really crazy thread...read it until the post of sarah...

you better believe I will get jealous even if im dead. 2 fuckin weeks what is that, thats just too soon.

No but your first post was addressed to baddog and said:
To any rationally thinking person this post was made by someone very into the goings on at GFY. If what you say about what happened to your previous nick is true, then you show poor will toward the forum first by not revealing your previous nick so that not only could it help the admins fix a problem but would also avoid giving the impression you are trolling from a new nick and second by making your debut post under this nick a negative one toward two people you supposedly have never interracted with.

Your choice how you build your board persona but if you plan on doing business from the board and assuming this really isn't a 2nd nick it will be

Oh, and have I said lately,
Go Sarah!

When you're dead you'll probably be concerned about whether you're frying or not. And even if you could see from the other side after all of the enlightenment one supposedly receives would it matter to you then as it does thinking about it now? When I'm dead people can fuck on top of my coffin for all I'd care. My life ends, not theirs.

says 12/26 for me, he just never made a post until this thread . . . however, yeah, I would like to know what your pre-03 name was

it is probably saying the 27th for you because you are in Europe

So what would you do, come back and haunt her? You are fucking dead, how can a dead person be jealous?

Point taken, I can see how you could determine I was posting under a false nick to start trouble.

However, what I originally said to Baddog had no ill intentions, simply pointing out that it goes both ways. He was the one posting taking up collections for Sarah, nothing wrong with that, quite admirable actually. But then he was asking for people to stick their nose in other people's business, then he turns around and says to keep your nose out of people's business.

That is wrong, it goes both ways and that is all I was pointing out. I never insulted him or attacked him in any way, of course Baddogs reaction was an obvious reflex negative reaction, which does not surprise me coming from him so I took it with a grain of salt.

As far as my board persona, what is wrong with the truth? I have asked in several posts to please come out and tell me exactly what I said that was so offensive to anybody. Anyone who cares to take a deep breath, calm down and let their Prozac kick in before they go back and reread my previous post can see I did not attack anybody, nor speak negatively of anybody here (until of course troll patrol came in a began attacking me first, for whatever reason he never was able to articulate).

Nobody has answered because they cannot find anything, I have done nothing but simply state two sides of the issue and how both could be easily accepted, and again I have said nothing but nice things in regards to Sarah and dealing with her loss. Seems to me more people are looking for reasons to attack anyone who dares open their mouths to say anything without in fact reading what they have said first.

And quite frankly I would never do business from this board. I can handle my business personally, and I thought this was a webmaster community for all to hang out and enjoy, not everyone here is interested in creating a fake board persona for the sake of doing business.

But today was a nice reminder of why I never posted much in the first place, trying to add some common sense or neutrality to any discussion that takes place on any message board is a bit like beating your head against a brick wall.

* bump *

the smilies are fucked up, someone fix them

yeah, I was the only one that took it that way

WOW.

So I read the thread up untill Sarah's post. Yes, it is wrong that she needed to explain herself in such a way. Though I think the original idea of the thread was a good one, which did bring out alot of good points and opinions on the subject.

(Is sex ok to use as a healing factor after the love of your life dies) - A VERY GOOD SUBJECT.

Although it might have been posted in a bad manor, it was still a reasonable and decent post untill things turning completely wrong. It really depends on how you look at it. Are you a pesimist or an optimist? <- That really makes this thread good or bad, it's your own decision to decide if this is a good or wrong thread, and only you can decide.

Anyway, I thought this needed to be posted again because it is hilarious. And it's one of the best things to come from this thread,

what a cunt.

stupid fuck!

You know what? When this was first posted it hurt me so bad that it set my 'recovery' back in a major way. Even more so that pretty much no one on the thread bothered to actually read my response and what actually happened.

Now, some seven months on I really could care less what some sad excuse for a troll - ie shaddam - thinks about me or my relationship. Why? Well, firstly because I know exactly how much I loved my husband and how much he loved me. I know for a fact what he would have thought about me having contact with another human being on a day when I needed someone to keep me from essentially killing myself.

I don't drink much, I don't smoke and I don't do drugs. So, on that night - my Birthday when I had spent the day opening gifts from my dead husband - I 'tripped up' in a way and fell into the caring arms of a friend who Marc not only knew about but approved of when he was alive. I didn't have intercourse..I didn't even do anything to him but that isn't the point. The point is that there are a total of two people in this thread that knew anything about how Marc would have felt about this - myself and Benzo - and I know for damn sure he would have understood.

Now, Shaddam or anyone else here - please tell me to my face that I don't love my husband? You have any idea what the process of moving on with your life after WATCHING your soul mate die in front of you is like? I suspect not.

Well, we are now eight months past his death and let me tell you a little bit about my existance. For some reason about three months ago I started getting nearly nightly nightmares that almost always were my brain reliving him dying. I suspect that after I started to get over the emotional shock my brain started to deal with the trauma of what I actually saw. In these dreams/nightmares I keep remembering little details of the moment his eyes rolled back in his head. Stupid things like the colour of the shoes of the first nurse to run in, etc. Like my brain is releasing little bits of the memory night after night.

Then there is what I am going to call the 'memory burn'. It is sort of like an image burned into a monitor that has been left on to long. You know how sometimes people day dream or just sit and want to think about nothing for a bit? I can't do that anymore. As soon as my brain clears of the immediate things the memory of his eyes rolling back comes right in and sits there and I can't shake it.

Then, there are the phone calls I get from friends that he hadn't talked to in a while that didn't know he died and I have to tell them. Then there was his daugther announcing she is getting married last month and him not able to be there. Then there are the bill companies that STILL are giving me a hard time on changing bills into my name and call looking for him. And simply, then there was 7/7 when I just wanted to be held by my husband.

So, Shaddam, I face a lot more every day than some bully, ill-informed, troll. So, troll on. I know how much I loved him and still do love him and I know exactly how much you matter in my life. Easy contest.

Way to go Sarah, I am proud of you!!!

I was just about to come into this thread and call who ever bumped it all kinds of unthinkably rude names.... but I guess Sarah can look after her self, WTG Sarah.

You immature, inconsiderate fuck.
You should be banned from this board.
You have a lot of growing up to do.

Yep, Sarah can take some names and kick some asses

Congrats, Shaddam IV...
you're the very first to make my ignore list, after a year here on the playground I haven't found one person horrible enough to ignore until now.

Sarah is one of the truest people I know, and I would trust her with anything I have.....for you to come in here trying to reopen wounds she's been healing for a full year is just disgusting.

You only WISH you could find someone to love your sick, twisted, pathetic ass like she loved and cared for Marc.

Sarah, rock on sister. Much love from across the pond.

He has been on my ignore list for quite some time. Feel free to contact me if you would like to know who else to add to make your GFY experience more enjoyable.

Holy shit long thread..

Anyway I don't see what the difference is.. Whats the dif between 3 months a year 2 years? When it really comes down to it..

yeah, first one on my list as well, amazing with all the morons hanging around the place, but I guess he tops them all...

Idiot.

i have nothing to say about this thread,i just wanted to particpate in the longest thread on gfy..

This one isn't even close

I can't even imagine what you must have gone thru in the past months and still do. I have trumendous respect for that. I'd love to shake your hand and say hi if there is a UK webmaster meeting this year somewhere.

Yep, you go Sarah!

i love ya sarah ;]

dont let some dumb fuck get you down

ST!

am i late for sig spot?

Yes, I belive so.

Why the bump?

what the fuck is wrong with you. Idiot.

everyone is keen on drama

This thread is sick.

I don't think she owes anyone here an explanation and it's none of our business.

You are a royal moron with way too much time on his hands. Get a job.

Because he is a troll

Exactly

It's kyle aka kak_azn and other trolling names. Mc Donalds is always hiring bro.

Someone should close this thread..

i'm not a troll... and i'm sure i make much more money in this biz than your broke ass...

Citizen Cain is Kyle? Is this confirmed?