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07-19-2005, 01:16 PM

Recent upheavels, complete life reroutes, mass confusion, loss of friends, new friends, strange new living arrangements, two cross-country moves in less than two months, everything seems to be coming down on me HARD.

This is fucking nuts. I'm struggling to not lose my fucking mind, not to snap and go off the deep end, to keep it all under control and I'm slowly losing that fight.

If I've snapped at you or just completely done something "out of character" for me in the recent past, I apologize. I'm doing my best to not lose my mind and to keep things in as best I can, work with me please.

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07-19-2005, 01:21 PM

Don't worry Tala, its all good!

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07-19-2005, 01:22 PM

Hang in there girlfriend
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07-19-2005, 01:22 PM

I don't really know the full story, but I do know moving sucks. I've done enough of it myself in the past 6 months. How come you moved back from Mexico?
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07-19-2005, 01:23 PM

lots of life changes cause intense stress. I'd see your doctor for some valiums or something to calm your nerves

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07-19-2005, 01:24 PM

dont worry tala...it'll be over soon

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07-19-2005, 01:29 PM

I'm to the point where I don't want to talk to anyone, I'm shutting myself off, and just extremely jumpy and angry for no particular reason. And if I hear one more snappish answer, yell, or peevish, snippy, "'cause I said so" bullshit attitude from anyone, I'm going to lose it and walk out.

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07-19-2005, 01:43 PM

*HUG* I hope that helps
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07-19-2005, 01:44 PM

Keep your head up Poppet!

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07-19-2005, 01:46 PM

Best wishes Tala. I love your positive morning posts

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07-19-2005, 01:53 PM

You know what, babygirl...you are entitled to have a moment of weakness. I don't know you extremely well, but what I perceive from you is a strong, honest, loving, giving woman who is always thinking of others. Sometimes you have to just pull back, and lick your wounds, and heal. Fuck everyone if they don't understand that. People who care about you will support your need to take some time to adapt, and get used to a different set of circumstances.

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07-19-2005, 01:55 PM

Hang in there you. Find your center, focus on what matters, let the rest just slide off.

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07-19-2005, 01:58 PM

Understand, there's a new job here that I love dearly. That's one of the few things that hasn't been driving me insane recently, so for those who are wondering, don't. I couldn't ask for a better job. But just about everything else has been pushing at me, gnawing away at my brain and emotional stability.

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07-19-2005, 01:59 PM

Originally posted by Tala

I'm to the point where I don't want to talk to anyone, I'm shutting myself off, and just extremely jumpy and angry for no particular reason. And if I hear one more snappish answer, yell, or peevish, snippy, "'cause I said so" bullshit attitude from anyone, I'm going to lose it and walk out.

I hope you don't have to deal with technical support.

I understand that sometimes life can be hard. But maybe you should talk about it more privately. Especially when your potential customers/employees are online.

Negativity/Depression isn't a good seller. When it comes to jobs/potential. People want winners/positive thoughts. Not depression.

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07-19-2005, 02:03 PM

get a big punching bag and go beat your frustrations out on IT.. it's very satisfying

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07-19-2005, 02:04 PM

I don't want to be a pain in the ass. It's just that with almost everyone in this industry (or at least, a good part of it) who read this board everyday. I don't think this kind of thread can really help you. People feeling sorry for you won't give you what you REALLY need. I am being honest here.

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07-19-2005, 02:08 PM

hang in there tala....
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07-19-2005, 02:19 PM

St Johns Wart - it's a herbal extract and it works wonders.

Plus a good dose of facing reality and dealing with it.

And before anyone jumps in and tells me that I'm being heartless or unfair let me tell you that I've been dealing with the black dog of depression for over 10 years now - I know what it's like and I know what it takes to overcome it when it bites.

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07-19-2005, 02:21 PM

Originally posted by NoCarrier

I don't want to be a pain in the ass. It's just that with almost everyone in this industry (or at least, a good part of it) who read this board everyday. I don't think this kind of thread can really help you. People feeling sorry for you won't give you what you REALLY need. I am being honest here.

Thanks. I do my absolute best to keep a positive face every morning, every day, so naturally I'm not allowed to stress nor am I allowed to come to the board to vent in any way whatsoever, especially if I'm really stressing and need a bit of support from those to whom I feel closest. Got it.

What I really need right now is the friendship and camraderie that I've come to know from the good folks here.

I thank goodness that the job I currently have is a great one with a great friend, and it's a place where I feel I can help others. I'm thrilled to be involved with impoverishedNOOBS. It's the one real joy I have right now. So those who asked, no I'm not upset about the job. Just stress that I've tried so hard to hide and ignore for so long coming back to kick my ass in a serious way.

Sorry I brought it up.

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07-19-2005, 02:26 PM

So anyway, why did you move back from Mexico?
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07-19-2005, 02:26 PM

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07-19-2005, 02:26 PM

just hang in there.. you've been a great help to the impoverished noobs.. i am sure you can pass through this one.. *a big girlie hug for you*

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07-19-2005, 02:28 PM

Originally posted by xenigo

So anyway, why did you move back from Mexico?

Lots of things. Mainly the fact that Mexico isn't a great spot for me, though my roomies were fucking awesome people.

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07-19-2005, 02:29 PM

Hang in there Tala. I don't know you, but I have had the pleasure of reading your posts etc. (and meeting you once briefly) You come across to me as a fighter. And even fighters have bad days. You will survive this just like you have survived in the past. You are strong and it's OK to fall apart from time to time, it does keep you sane in the long run! Hang in there girl, you can do it!!

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07-19-2005, 02:39 PM

I still say you should get a big punching bag and let rip on it.. and if you want to vent, just yell and scream and shout at it as you hit it.. hell, if it's a certain person or thing that's getting at you, stick a picture of it on there and there you go!

It's normal for humans to feel pressured sometimes, and to get angry and feel just wound up inside and needing some kind of release - better to explode in a controlled way rather than one day going postal and killing the neighbourhood

I guess you could always just take it out on some slaves asses too.. yeah, that's the BEST alternative.. go whip some ass and show em who's boss Tala!!

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07-19-2005, 02:40 PM

We all have our ups and downs Tala. Don't worry.

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07-19-2005, 02:41 PM

Work out for 10 minutes. You'll feel better.
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07-19-2005, 02:44 PM

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07-19-2005, 02:45 PM

Hang in there.... tough times suck, but they make you stronger.
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07-19-2005, 02:45 PM

Originally posted by Gasper

Work out for 10 minutes. You'll feel better.

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07-19-2005, 02:46 PM

Originally posted by Tala

Sorry I brought it up.

Tala, you don't need to feel sorry about anything. I just don't think that in the long run, posting this on GFY will really help you. Last time when I posted about my cat who passed away really helped me. Sometimes this board can be really helpful, but in your case, I suggest you seek some help more privately.

Damn, I sound like a bad kick in the ass. I know.

But I am sure it's going to help you even more in your professional life if you talk about your problems to a professional, in a private place. Like I said, potential people who could hire you, should never feel sorry for you. They should feel like you're the one for the job.

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07-19-2005, 03:26 PM

always remember that everybody hurts. I wish you well.

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07-19-2005, 03:33 PM

have a good grip Tala... rainbows are good after a rainy day...

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07-19-2005, 04:10 PM

I guess you have to tough it out..........

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07-19-2005, 04:16 PM

Originally posted by NoCarrier

Tala, you don't need to feel sorry about anything. I just don't think that in the long run, posting this on GFY will really help you. Last time when I posted about my cat who passed away really helped me. Sometimes this board can be really helpful, but in your case, I suggest you seek some help more privately.

Damn, I sound like a bad kick in the ass. I know.

But I am sure it's going to help you even more in your professional life if you talk about your problems to a professional, in a private place. Like I said, potential people who could hire you, should never feel sorry for you. They should feel like you're the one for the job.

She isn't looking for advice at this particular moment. She wants a hug. Reach out and touch her!
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07-19-2005, 04:56 PM

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She wants a hug.

Here ya go, Tala!

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07-19-2005, 04:59 PM

thanks, all -- for your support -- before she was my coo, she was my friend. you all know how that goes: darkest before the dawn, water's at its choppiest just when you're gettin' into the boat. i told t. she's reachin' in to tap this karma pool -- must be for a reason - told her "what are you wanting for? what do you need?" -- when a good person's been beaten up/down a little bit, it makes 'em wonder why/what for -- "am I to blame for all this pain--?" -- i told her yes and no: strong people get hard jobs. tala's so strong she'd lift your sorry shit up from the deepest hole, one hand, like t'weren't nothin' at all -- i've seen it. she's gearin' up for somethin' great. watch. i'm nothin' but the handful of people who believe my crazy rants -- she's one. thanks t, girl -- we'll get there, sure as sho.

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07-19-2005, 05:03 PM

Sometimes you do need to vent, so good for you for getting it out! I hope it clears your heart and your mind and gives you some peace. *Hug*

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07-19-2005, 05:07 PM

Originally posted by BusterPorn

She isn't looking for advice at this particular moment. She wants a hug. Reach out and touch her!

I understand, but sometimes, asking for a hug on GFY everyday isn't healthy. She needs much more than that (she needs professional help). And she doesn't need to show the world she's in pain. Especially where she can get an new job. A new hobby....Whatever.

It's not healthy after 6 months to feel the same..

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07-19-2005, 05:27 PM

Tala I can understand and relate to the stress and instability in your life right now. It's hard. I spent all of 2004 just like you are now, minus the 2 cross country moves. Sometimes when you're down and don't see any relief in sight, it sort of paralyzes you. Everything becomes overwhelming and you aren't really sure what to do. You see a million options in front of you, but you are so drained that you don't have it in you to execute any of them.

I was ready to give it all up... I didn't know if I wanted to be around a lot of people to distract me or totally isolate myself from the world. I just wanted relief or to revert back to things being the way they were.

Things never went back the way they used to be for me -- they got better than I could ever imagine. I never thought I'd be happy or hopeful again and fate has a weird way of changing everything when you least expect it. I know it's cliche to say "hang in there, things will get better" but it's true. Things always get better and it's usually when you aren't dwelling on other things and you least expect it.

You will be happy and stabilized again. I can almost guarantee it. Maybe 6 months, a year, or 5 years from now... this will all be a distant memory of a dark time in your life. You will learn and grow from all of it. Everything happens for a reason. Everything. It gets better, take it from someone who has been there.

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07-19-2005, 05:49 PM

Get a massage,
have a good cry or a hot bath, sit in the sun...get some fresh air.

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07-19-2005, 06:55 PM

Hugs for Tala. Hang in there chicky. You've survived alot and I know you have the strength to get through this. I've seen it.

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07-19-2005, 07:09 PM

Tala

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there is always sunshine after a storm .. hang in there *hugs*

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07-19-2005, 07:33 PM

People here in GFY loves you so much. They feel your pain...lol

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07-19-2005, 07:50 PM

Originally posted by NoCarrier

I understand, but sometimes, asking for a hug on GFY everyday isn't healthy. She needs much more than that (she needs professional help). And she doesn't need to show the world she's in pain. Especially where she can get an new job. A new hobby....Whatever.

It's not healthy after 6 months to feel the same..

And apparently you aren't getting it either. Sometimes no matter how right you think you are or how good you think your advice is it is best to say nothing at all and offer compassion. Walk a mile in someone elses shoes and you may learn a lot.
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07-19-2005, 08:13 PM

ugh i'm sorry you are going thru all that tala.

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07-19-2005, 09:37 PM

Tala, as you know I've had my own personal problems lately. Some days I struggle to make it through each hour. Some I cry all day long. Some I curl up and watch movies all day and some I spend time with friends and family trying to push the thought of the disaster away (which never happens but it keeps you from dwelling). All work. All are good for you, I think. Just do what's right for YOU, that's the most important thing.
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