My cat just passed away :(

my gf has her for over 10 years now. and she loves it like a family member.
you know what ? i dont want to know what happens to my gf when her beloved cat dies....
dont want to think about it at all



my condolences no carrier

I always thought that posting this shit on GFY would be useless, but it's just too difficult for me today. My cat was with me since 1989. Since I was a teenager. I was 17 when I got her. I know it's fucking stupid talking about my cat on GFY.

"Tipoil" was diagnosed with CRF (Renal failure). She was 15. I moved into my new house last week and she seriously got dehydrated and she was extremely weak. I decided to take her to the vet. This was the last time I saw her. I learned the next day that her kidneys stopped working properly. The toxicity in her blood was so high that the machines could not give an accurate number. I still wanted to try treatment. She was put on IV with fluids for 48 hours. The vet told me that if the toxicity in her blood didn't drop, I'd have to take a hard decision. I was devastated. I couldn't stop crying.

I didn't want to go see her because it would hurt me a lot seeing her under treatment. I started reading a lot on the internet about CRF and the treatments at home (Sub-Q fluids and a special diet).

I had hopes.

Then they called me yesterday with the results. Bad news. The toxicity was still extremely high. Her kidneys really stopped functionning. No treatment could save her. I started crying over the phone and decided to make the final decision. Euthanasia.

I decided not to go see her, it was too hard for me. I didn't want to see her dying in front of me.

But today I feel extremely guilty because I didn't go see her and that I didn't go for her euthanasia.

Maybe I should've wait a little longer, bring her home, spend some more time with her then take an appointement for the euthanasia. Now I feel like I didn't have time to see say goodbye. I know that the euthanasia was the only solution but I think my decision was rushed. I am so confused and sad.

I miss my cat so much.. I dreamed about her last night. In my dream I hugged her and told her I loved her.

I'm thinking about all the wonderful years I had with her and how well she was treated. She was a special queen. She had an excellent life. I know it was the perfect decision but I still feel guilt.

For the past couple of months, she started losing weight, drinking more water and urinating a lot in the litter box. I didn't know she was sick. Now I know why.

I'm only saying goodbye because I know I will see her someday, in another world, or state of conscience.

Sorry to hear that NC. I think part of the reason I don't want pets is due to having to go through the inevitable seperation when they die...sucks.

Best thing you can do though is get a new one. That's what pet people tell me, for what it's worth.

Sort of like women...hmmm....

I am sooo sorry.
Wow this is deja vu for me. I had the exact same thing happen last year so I totally understand. I completely feel for you about making the decision to keep her medicated or finally have to put he down. I also got results that were extremely high and also did 2 days if fluids which didn't help. I then decided to bring her home and give her lots of meds and take her to the Vet every couple days to get fluids. Nothing helped of course. The only option was a kidney transplant which is really expensive and not really an option when they get that sick.
My kitty only made it a couple more weeks and we had to also have her put down. She just laid around and we forced water and meds into her all the time and got so weak she couldn't even make it to the litter box or even stand up to go to the bathroom. It was just to hard to see her like that so it was best for her. The day she got bad like this was quick and immediately I took her to the vet but it was those few hours of knowing she couldn't get up on her own was very very hard.

My point is you did the right thing. I did what I thought was the best to keep her alive as long as I could and hold her and spend as much time with her before she got too bad but to see her like that was too much. It is now very hard to get those visions out of my head so I think you made the right move and not letting her suffer.

On a side note when I kissed my kitty goodbye for the last time I told her to come play with me in my dreams and show me she is ok so maybe that was your kitty's way of showing you she is happy and ok and waiting for you.

Here is a great poem that helped me when this happened
http://rainbowsbridge.com/Poem.htm

My Kitty (Tiger Lilly)