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Up til this point the sex went from amazing down to seeing she is not into it at all. 2 days pass and she wants me to go over and keep her company and make love. We never did make love. Girl thing. I ended up staying for 2 nigths and on the mornign after the second night I noticed she is pushing me away even more. This time I lay down beside her when we sleep and she turns away with me with a sigh of "disgust" so I got fed up and went to find my roomate's number from my chat logs on her computer to get a lift home. I was in no mood to wait around. i wanteched her kids for those 2 days while her guy friend was claling 10 times a daya nd her dissapearing to talk to him about a car she was buying from him. Also.. she has been talking to people int he bathroom and outside on her cell phone a lot. I felt something was really being hid from me and knowing her guy friend and her have fooled around int he past was makign me think something was up. When i went to look for my chat logs something fucked up in her dinosaure computer and a whoel slew of chat logs loaded form HER convos! The top msot one on the screen, one with her kid's father!
Suposedly they are together, he's comming home on xmas ot make love to her and give her a ring and that she has been sending him pictures of her pussy ... while i was there thinking she was in the shower!!!! i wake her up and make her explain why she was two-timing me. She tells me she nevera ctualyl sent them and that she is elading him on because the last time she refused his advances he abandoned the kids for a few months and she has to do what it takes to keep her kids from having a bad christmas and that she will nevera ctually do anything with him.
She drove me home and on the way I told ehr she either has ot make good on this or I'm gone. We went for a drive that night to talk and she agreed the pictrues and sex thing was wrong but the fake love for him was not considering it would spare ehr kid spain and that I will have to deal with it. A couple days pass and we decide she can take her time to make right on it and we'll keep building out relaitonship. That night she needs me to babysit so she can go out with an old highs chool girlfriend to unwind. I get there, she take s ahower, all dolled up, hair done up perfect, perfume.. nice lcothes everything. Didnt make sense.
As she laves she has a guilty look on her face that tells me she is about to do somethign wrong. She says she feels bad about leaving the kids with me but I say she always does so tell me whatt eh real issue is. She reverses the car.. stops, reverses.. stops.. shakes her head and scoots off.
I knew she was up to soemthing so I purposely checked for logs.. None.. all gone. I run an undelte program. She told EVERYONE she dumped me cause I w nted to get married too fast. She made me promise that to her. i never pressured her about it. Anyways. She was agreeing to meet this guy to have sex. I text messaged her and told her I know she's fucking "#####" and she sauys she made the logs on purpose to prove I wouldlook if I suspected her of something. I almsot fell for it. She took tow hours to get home and i freaked out at her as to how much the games she is playing is hurting me and how all this secret phone calls are way too much and that it's not as innocent as she makes it appear. She promised never to play tricks on me again and that she wa very sorry.
That nigth she wouldnt let me near her.. I got one hug and she smelle dliek sex and cologne. I knew something was up.. however.. her bodywash kinda smells like that sometimes when she straightens her hair with the iron.
She wouldnt even sleep in the same bed as me. The next mornign after arguing with her to give me proof.. i went home.. The next day she took me for a drive a few times and ont he last one she found out ehr gramma was dying when she got a call. She told me I have to watch the kids so I stayed off and on all that week and she turned alls weet and affectionate when she was home but I noticed when iw ent to use her cell that her calls logs were ALL erased.. something was being hid. By the time the funeral was done and all that for her grandmother I had enough and decided I wanted to cut my ties with her. We had sex the night before and I could tell she was disgusted by what she was doing.
That same night i ended it she told me she was going to hand out with "#####" the dude she fucked and that it's nt what i think. When she got back I freaked out at her on msn and she told me to call her. She answered every question. yes she fucked him that night of the logs, yes she fucked him this very night. Why? Because I would talk to my sons mom on the phone outside instead of around her. Something I do out of respect. Because she felt a distance between us and that all she knows is sex as a way to get away from shit when things get rough and becuase of shit that happend in her past. She wanted to work it out and be together, she would get counseling, I would give her a month to be alone and figure her shit out and she would let me keep tabs on her as long as I primised to relax on her once she showed I could trust her and she would confess to the kid's father soon.
Then it dawned on me.. as I am talking to her she is on the phone with me talking sweet and acting all sorry that she is full of this guy;s cum right at that moment. I could not handle that and starting going off how what she did was mean, evil, slutty and down right makes her a piece of shit at that very moment. I said I dont know if I will every talk to her again but said I imagine I would because I would forgive at some point. I was planning to at least be willing to talk to her more the following day to see how sincere she was btu we ended up hanging up.
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