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bausch · 10-06-2006, 04:51 PM

She says her father was also a pastor like Donny's. at one point she said she was so depressed she wanted to kill herself

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fu...2d6b8b3081d3ML

"Apparently the two are at war in my life right now. It's a little scary but I know that God will defeat the devil. I have been trying to be strong but gave in to the devil a time or two and the guilt and hurt it caused in my life is just insane. I have been feeling pretty hopeless, sad, and totally broken. I guess that is the devils way to keep you feeling bad about yourself so you continue into a downward spiral.

I felt so sad that I started thinking about ending my life yesterday. I didn't attempt it but I thought about it all day. After hours of crying I checked my myspace email and had a dozen emails from my friends telling me how much God loves me and how you guys were praying for me. I also was speaking to a friend on my instant messenger during this time I told her about my sadness and how my family doesn't seem to be there for me. My parents haven't called me and rarely do. I told her it's not even that they are mad at me, they just simply don't care. I curled up in a ball on my bed and just cried and all of a sudden my cell rang and it was my mom. I was so choked up I couldn't answer. I even had a panic attack yesterday for the first time in a long time.

"God is working in many ways in my life. He knows my heart and knows I want to do the right things. It is hard to break bad old habits and to just walk in his glory and not mess up. I want to do it though. I want to give it all up to him. Everyone keeps telling me that God has plans for me. I believe it. There have been so many small miracles happening in such a short period of time that I cannot doubt it!

I might want to end it all and just go to be with the one who loves me but he isn't ready for me yet. The devil better watch out because when I am done healing I want to fulfill God's plans for my life and I believe he has big ones for me! Please keep me in your prayers and thanks for all the encouraging emails. They mean the world to me. "

10-06-2006, 04:51 PM
bausch Confirmed User Join Date: Jul 2006 Posts: 3,017	She says her father was also a pastor like Donny's. at one point she said she was so depressed she wanted to kill herself http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fu...2d6b8b3081d3ML "Apparently the two are at war in my life right now. It's a little scary but I know that God will defeat the devil. I have been trying to be strong but gave in to the devil a time or two and the guilt and hurt it caused in my life is just insane. I have been feeling pretty hopeless, sad, and totally broken. I guess that is the devils way to keep you feeling bad about yourself so you continue into a downward spiral. I felt so sad that I started thinking about ending my life yesterday. I didn't attempt it but I thought about it all day. After hours of crying I checked my myspace email and had a dozen emails from my friends telling me how much God loves me and how you guys were praying for me. I also was speaking to a friend on my instant messenger during this time I told her about my sadness and how my family doesn't seem to be there for me. My parents haven't called me and rarely do. I told her it's not even that they are mad at me, they just simply don't care. I curled up in a ball on my bed and just cried and all of a sudden my cell rang and it was my mom. I was so choked up I couldn't answer. I even had a panic attack yesterday for the first time in a long time. "God is working in many ways in my life. He knows my heart and knows I want to do the right things. It is hard to break bad old habits and to just walk in his glory and not mess up. I want to do it though. I want to give it all up to him. Everyone keeps telling me that God has plans for me. I believe it. There have been so many small miracles happening in such a short period of time that I cannot doubt it! I might want to end it all and just go to be with the one who loves me but he isn't ready for me yet. The devil better watch out because when I am done healing I want to fulfill God's plans for my life and I believe he has big ones for me! Please keep me in your prayers and thanks for all the encouraging emails. They mean the world to me. "