You ain't in no position to be "filled in" on fuck all nor ramble on about south park and higher powers - and what you are willing, or not willing to do.
You either continue screwing up, leeching money and prob end up in a jail cell - or you get treatment for addiction - NOW!
woj (good man!) just gave you the first link to help you quit the bullshit - call your local support hotline NOW and establish contact with people willing and able to help you. Have a chat - ask then what they do blah.
Hanging around GFY sig whoring is a joke - you are just sponsor fodder like most GFY users, - and, in the main, you will not get help from here.
You know you can't be trusted with shit - why should anyone else trust you? Instead of fucking about here - why have you not already taken action to get your shit in order??
Start doing something with genuine intent to help yourself - then others may be more willing to help you.
OK.. That's the blunt version
But ya got to start somewhere madawgz - and NOW is a good time.
It will take more effort on your part than luck - but wish you Good Luck!
PS And not gambling luck!
