BuckNaked

After the issues with aaron and tam today, I finally talked to tam and came to realize that I owe her a huge apology.

See tam worked for me for 10 months and during that time I was so stretched that I couldn't get anything going for her to really do, yet I kept her on because of stubbornness and male ego, taking more work than I could handle which screwed my design rep up even more than I already had. I don't blame tam for my failures, hell she truly believed that i could succeed...

When it finally got too much to bare tam decided she needed security for her family(can't blame her) and we ended our employee-employer relationship. She took a job with bad girl bucks and unfortunately my male ego and stubborness made me feel betrayed and hurt and I lashed out making comments that as soon as they came out of my mouth they were forgotten by me, sort of a chance to just rant like therapy for my hurt feelings.

It turns out, as I guess I should have known it would, that it got back to her and she felt betrayed, hurt and totally fucked over, and I can't blame her one bit.

I want to go on record and I hope that anyone who I ever talked to or who ever has heard my rantings in the past that I hold myself responsible for my failures. Not tam or anyone esle, tam was a great friend when I really needed someone and she is very loyal in that area.

I would like to personally apologize to Tam for everything that has went down and to the fact that I was oblivious to what I was doing to you and your business reputation, you have no idea how sorry I am....

Tam is a workhorse that doesn't quit till she falls over dead everyday, and that is the god's honest truth.

I hope Tam that you can accept my apology and somehow make amends even if we're just okay with each other, I hope we can...

As far as aaron, man you're right I have done a lot of crazy shit without thinking and have eaten a lot of shit in this biz because of it, I have always tried to stand up and make amends or at least accept responsibility for my actions and who knows maybe someday I'll get it right.


Thanks for the 2 minutes.

Peace & porn
Buck

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