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Originally Posted by NichePay - StuartD
My friend's brother is gay and didn't know it until he was 17. Mind you, everyone else knew it by the way he acted... but he actually dated girls through highschool and everything.
Think it was just denial? or did he actually not know?
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For me I always fought the idea that I was bi. My very first memory of getting turned on was at the image of two women with each other but I didn't know what the feeling was. Then I would ocassionally have fantasies and read lesbian stories as a teen but I just kept saying to myself that it was just because I was a virgin and anything sexual was going to turn me on.
I even joined the gay/straight group in my freshman year in college but was still telling myself I was straight and everything else was just exciting because sex in general was exciting.
Then I actually had sex with a man and it was wonderful but I was still getting turned on by lesbian stories, etc and I started to allow myself to look at actual women as sexually attractive. Once I allowed myself to see I was bisexual then I could start to see what I really was and only then could I come out to anybody else.
It was always there I just wasn't allowing myself to be out to myself.