Cigarettes and Cocaine.
I am an active cigarette smoker. I am an occasional cocaine user but was once a heavy addict, and once you're a cocaine addict, you are always a cocaine addict. Facts of life. You'll always have that monkey on your back. Stupid to have ever done the first rail but, life is life and there is no rewind button.
I can resist it as long as it's not in my face. I don't actively go out seeking it, yet, it seems to always have a way of finding me.
