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Maxy · 12-02-2005, 02:35 PM

Until recently Jay never knew the real reason why his father left. While dream hampton was working on the Black Book she uncovered the truth in an interview with Jay?s mother. ?He didn?t know that a big turning point in his Dad?s life was when his younger brother got stabbed in the heart,? hampton says. ?Jay?s uncle was stabbed in the chest during an unfair fight and his father became consumed with desire for revenge. His boys would be calling him at two in the morning like yo, I just saw that nigga over here and he would throw on some clothes and head out lookin for this nigga. And he kinda never recovered from that.? Jay said, ?That made him a bitter, evil, different guy.?

When Jay?s mother found out that AJ didn?t have long to live she made it her mission to get Jay and his father to reconnect before it was too late. Jay was resistant. ?I was like, mmmm, nah,? he said. ?But she kept going, kept goin. So I was like alright, bring him over to my house. Of course, I knew he?s not gonna come.? Jay sat at his place in New Jersey, waiting for his father to come see him, just knowing he wouldn?t come, bringing back childhood feelings of abandonment that he?d worked so hard to insulate himself from. AJ didn?t come. ?I was like, I knew it,? Jay said.

Jay was very reluctant to give his father another chance, but eventually he did. ?The second time I was sittin there like, this time he has to come because if he doesn?t come I?m never doin this again. I?m never doin this again.? But this time his father showed up. ?Me and my pop got to talk,? he said. ?That was very defining of my life. I got to let it go. I got to tell him everything I wanted to say. I just said what I felt. It wasn?t yelling and crying and drastic and dramatic. It was very adult and grown men, but it was tough. I didn?t let him off the hook. I was real tough with him. We just went through that whole thing. How could you do that? He was like, well you knew where I was. I was like, I?m a kid. I?m not supposed to find you. What are you talking about? He said, you?re right. And then it was cool and that kinda freed everything.? Jay found his father an apartment in Brooklyn near the hospital and furnished it. ?That?s the right thing to do as far as karma and everything,? he says. A few months later when his father passed Jay was able to feel at peace. At least until the summer of 2005 when a much more difficult death tumbled into his life.

Jay has four nephews and one niece and he looks at them as if they were his own kids. He should because, friends say, he?s played a major part in raising them. When Annie?s son, Colleek Luckie graduated from high school, Jay flew across the country to be there. ?I flew, I landed, I get in the car, I asked the driver, you know where you goin, right?? The driver said yes, so Jay took a nap, but when he awoke they were lost. ?I?m thinking, if I miss his graduation, oh my God. I gave him my word. I don?t ever wanna break my word with these guys. Specially from when how I came up, like my pop. I know how kids remember. I?m the kid who never forgets.? He was so upset he almost punched the driver. ?I was so mad. I had tears in my eyes and sh!t. I don?t cry over nothing. But I made it [to the ceremony]. I was a little late, but I made it.?

But on June 28th, 2005, Luckie was killed in a car accident in Pennsylvania while riding in the Chrysler Jay had bought him as a graduation present. Jay was in LA for the BET Awards when he heard. ?He cried,? Waples said. ?I know he had a couple good cries. He told me he needed a good cry. I think it was mind-blowing for him.? Jay said, ?It was the toughest sh!t. Nothing close to it. Numbingly. Like I?m numb. I?m numb.? Months later he?s still deling with the pain. ?sh!t comes time-released.? He paused. ?Beautiful kid.?

12-02-2005, 02:35 PM
Maxy Confirmed User Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: NYC Posts: 1,858	Until recently Jay never knew the real reason why his father left. While dream hampton was working on the Black Book she uncovered the truth in an interview with Jay?s mother. ?He didn?t know that a big turning point in his Dad?s life was when his younger brother got stabbed in the heart,? hampton says. ?Jay?s uncle was stabbed in the chest during an unfair fight and his father became consumed with desire for revenge. His boys would be calling him at two in the morning like yo, I just saw that nigga over here and he would throw on some clothes and head out lookin for this nigga. And he kinda never recovered from that.? Jay said, ?That made him a bitter, evil, different guy.? When Jay?s mother found out that AJ didn?t have long to live she made it her mission to get Jay and his father to reconnect before it was too late. Jay was resistant. ?I was like, mmmm, nah,? he said. ?But she kept going, kept goin. So I was like alright, bring him over to my house. Of course, I knew he?s not gonna come.? Jay sat at his place in New Jersey, waiting for his father to come see him, just knowing he wouldn?t come, bringing back childhood feelings of abandonment that he?d worked so hard to insulate himself from. AJ didn?t come. ?I was like, I knew it,? Jay said. Jay was very reluctant to give his father another chance, but eventually he did. ?The second time I was sittin there like, this time he has to come because if he doesn?t come I?m never doin this again. I?m never doin this again.? But this time his father showed up. ?Me and my pop got to talk,? he said. ?That was very defining of my life. I got to let it go. I got to tell him everything I wanted to say. I just said what I felt. It wasn?t yelling and crying and drastic and dramatic. It was very adult and grown men, but it was tough. I didn?t let him off the hook. I was real tough with him. We just went through that whole thing. How could you do that? He was like, well you knew where I was. I was like, I?m a kid. I?m not supposed to find you. What are you talking about? He said, you?re right. And then it was cool and that kinda freed everything.? Jay found his father an apartment in Brooklyn near the hospital and furnished it. ?That?s the right thing to do as far as karma and everything,? he says. A few months later when his father passed Jay was able to feel at peace. At least until the summer of 2005 when a much more difficult death tumbled into his life. Jay has four nephews and one niece and he looks at them as if they were his own kids. He should because, friends say, he?s played a major part in raising them. When Annie?s son, Colleek Luckie graduated from high school, Jay flew across the country to be there. ?I flew, I landed, I get in the car, I asked the driver, you know where you goin, right?? The driver said yes, so Jay took a nap, but when he awoke they were lost. ?I?m thinking, if I miss his graduation, oh my God. I gave him my word. I don?t ever wanna break my word with these guys. Specially from when how I came up, like my pop. I know how kids remember. I?m the kid who never forgets.? He was so upset he almost punched the driver. ?I was so mad. I had tears in my eyes and sh!t. I don?t cry over nothing. But I made it [to the ceremony]. I was a little late, but I made it.? But on June 28th, 2005, Luckie was killed in a car accident in Pennsylvania while riding in the Chrysler Jay had bought him as a graduation present. Jay was in LA for the BET Awards when he heard. ?He cried,? Waples said. ?I know he had a couple good cries. He told me he needed a good cry. I think it was mind-blowing for him.? Jay said, ?It was the toughest sh!t. Nothing close to it. Numbingly. Like I?m numb. I?m numb.? Months later he?s still deling with the pain. ?sh!t comes time-released.? He paused. ?Beautiful kid.? __________________ SIG TOO BIG! Maximum 120x60 button and no more than 3 text lines of DEFAULT SIZE and COLOR. Unless your sig is for a GFY top banner sponsor, you may use a 624x80 instead of a 120x60. Let me repeat... A 120 x 60 button and no more that 3 lines of DEFAULT SIZE AND COLOR text.