Originally Posted by Tala

As much hell and depression as I've been through this year, I could easily look back and bitterly say "What the hell do I have to be thankful for?"

I've lost two good friends, four cats, (one of them died, the rest went to good homes), my husband, and my entire way of life. Lost my house, a car, watched another family member's marriage dissolve, and a bunch of other little shit accumulating to make me miserable.

But with all of that, I have to honestly say I'm not bitter. Still hurting, still kinda numb, but not bitter.

I have a lot for which to be thankful. I have my health, which this year has been better than the past four years, I still have one cat whom I adore, I have my little p.o.s. truck, and I still have my sense of humor.

I have friends to whom I am close, I have learned lessons that otherwise I don't think I would have bothered to learn, I have seen much of the country by driving it twice over, I have the experiences to last me a lifetime in memories and little moments.

I've lost a lot. I've given up a lot. But I'm still alive. I'm still me, but I'm still learning.

For everything I have, for everything I love, for everyone who has stayed by me through all of the hell that has been 2005, and for everything I've learned along the way, I am truly thankful.