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Sam, I have drug and alchohol issues - and don't shy away from it when people ask... No drinking wasn't the right thing to do tonight, at all .. I should of called someone from my meetings. But it has been 2-3 months of wanting to drink every night, and I guess this ws finally a good enough of an excuse for me... It's bull shit and I will regret it in the AM but I am much less upset now (until tommorow morning anyways) then Iw as 2 hours ago.
Talking to her about it tomorrow is a good idea. Tongiht if I had done it after the way she dealt with everything - It would of been an argument where I wouldn't of let her get a word in I was so upset... She is not into romantic shit, and I undestand that (this women isn't your average girl) but for Christ Sakes... Marriage? That has to get everyone!!!
CU, No ... She knew I was very serious, this girl knows me after 5 years
Fetish, No stopping once the bottles up bud... Case wil get me through tomorrow morning and I am hitting an 11:00 meeting to start over. I don't feel as bad about it now as I will when I go to the meeting tomorrow.
Adult, I did communicate my feelings about the porposal but not how it angered me that she wasn't acting giddy about being engaged.. I know it sounds stupid, but it's queer for a guy to do that man... I dunno - weird situation and I am a closed person alot of the time
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