I just read through the entire thread and I'll tell it wasnt really a fun thread to read.
Newbreed I wish you the best of luck and try to think positive and yeah small advice from me. "Move on there is so many more out there. Just see it as a goodtime in your life."
Even though we dont know eachother I would like you to hit me up for a talk if you would like that. Talking about shit like this is a good way to get closure.
btw sorry for my bad spelling just woke up. :/