This is the first time I have cried in years.
I woke up today, realized what day it was and just sort of rolled over in bed and started crying for almost an hour. It's like, it was so much fun while it lasted but now...it's coming to an end and my heart is in peices.
I've had tears in my eyes ever since I woke up. I can hardly see straight...I'm so extremely sad. A peice of me will be ripped out in a couple days, and I don't know what's worse - knowing it's coming or the day itself.
I spoke to a counselor a couple hours ago, and she told me that I have these repressed feelings and that these events forthcoming are merely being intensified because of them.
Everyone thinks I'm making a big deal of this, but...no...I'm not. It's the end of something great. Sure, It will happen again shortly, but for now it's just too hard to think about it.
Even as I'm typing this I'm crying on the inside. I just want to crawl up in my bed and go away until this pain subsides.
It just hurts.....so....so very much.
In a couple days it will be over. Just a couple days. That's all that is left.
Anyone ever experience this?
Please, friends, I need your advice.