Tala I can understand and relate to the stress and instability in your life right now. It's hard. I spent all of 2004 just like you are now, minus the 2 cross country moves. Sometimes when you're down and don't see any relief in sight, it sort of paralyzes you. Everything becomes overwhelming and you aren't really sure what to do. You see a million options in front of you, but you are so drained that you don't have it in you to execute any of them.
I was ready to give it all up... I didn't know if I wanted to be around a lot of people to distract me or totally isolate myself from the world. I just wanted relief or to revert back to things being the way they were.
Things never went back the way they used to be for me -- they got better than I could ever imagine. I never thought I'd be happy or hopeful again and fate has a weird way of changing everything when you least expect it. I know it's cliche to say "hang in there, things will get better" but it's true. Things always get better and it's usually when you aren't dwelling on other things and you least expect it.
You will be happy and stabilized again. I can almost guarantee it. Maybe 6 months, a year, or 5 years from now... this will all be a distant memory of a dark time in your life. You will learn and grow from all of it. Everything happens for a reason. Everything. It gets better, take it from someone who has been there.
