Originally Posted by mrthumbs

I know your frustration but its really important to understand for yourself
that all the 'could have beens' and good experiences he may have undergone if he didnt do this selfish act exists only in the imagination of the people he left behind: you for example.

The recovery you are talking about is getting him back to the point where he sees a future and is confident in things well..a situation where he can simple live without the urge putting an end to it.. thats only 60% peace of mind.. now he is at 100%.

Even if he didnt do it.. and a year later he would have a great life.. succes
and surround by happines crying "how could i have ever thought about THAT.. life is so good now!" thats simply not relevant anymore.. only for you and the other people that loved him.

Suicide is one of the most complex issues for a person to understand (any person.. even for him till the very last second) but the key is to accept for yourself that once its 'done' it all doesnt matter. nothing.

The ironic part of that is that if you are able to accept and see things that way it also reflect on your own life: just something thats there until you switch if off. And thats a mindset that goes against all natural instincts
because that basicly means living life has no sense.
As in: being able to accept the death of someone that killed himself automatically puts your own life in another, darker, perspective.

But not accepting it will keep you with this strange feeling of misplaced 'guilt' for the rest of your life.

If you have the strength to keep yourself from god and religion life is what you make of it. And if you dont like it anymore or there is no chance for progression (in your opinion!) then simply turn it off.