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4. Describe the lifestyle difference between a christian apologist and someone who works in porn like you.
Ahhhhhhh. For a few years, when I was in my early twenties, I was a religious zealot. I had found "religion" and immersed myself into it totally.
Now being a good christian fellow, I honestly believed that anyone who didn't agree with me was going to hell. So my mission in life was to convince people on an intellectual level that the Bible was the word of God, and that they needed Jesus or else they were going to be in a world of hurt.
I read stacks and stacks and stacks of books. I learned about all of the other religions of the world (in a skewed kind of way, since the books I was reading were explaining why Christianity was the real deal and all the other religions weren't) I lived for heated debates with Atheists, Jehovah's Witnesses, and anyone else who didn't agree with me.
I had plans to attend seminary and become a christian apologist (defender of the faith)
However, the more I studied the Bible in an effort to prove it was the inerrant word of God, the more flaws I found in it, the more circular reasoning I found in Christian theology, and the more things I found that just didn't make sense.
My friends in the church told me I was frying my brain, I didn't need all that stuff, I just had to accept things on "faith"
However by my way of thinking, if the Bible truly was the word of God, then there would be no flaw in it. God's word would be irrefutable by anything as simple as man's logic and reasoning. Eventually I saw things for what they were, but it was a long and greivous process for me.
Its very hard to admit that you've wasted a few years of your life and even harder to give up ALL of your friends and start life over again. It was as painful as getting a divorce I'd say. However I always promised myself to be committed to the truth, and when I realized that what I had wasn't the truth, I had to give it up.
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