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now that the speculation has spiraled into complete chaos here... (and now that I'm not drunk as a fuckin' skunk anymore), let me just say that I hate this. I think this sucks that this has gone to this point. I don't like doing this shit at all..... it leaves a bad fucking taste in my mouth. But a deal is a deal, and people need to be responsible when making them. I fucked myself on this one. I allowed myself to get fucked. I'm not looking for "silence" money here..... a certain amount was agreed upon back at the end of March. That's all I want, and all I expect. Now that it's the end of May, I feel that is more than enough time.
For some stupid reason that I can't figure out, I actually feel bad about this. And I know I shouldn't, because the facts remain. Myself and other people involved are owed, and in the meantime, my name is being dragged through the mud because of it. That is far more important to me than the money. Those involved know who they are. There's no mistake about it. So there's no need for more wild speculation.
Also, you can probably ignore at least half of whatever I said in here last night, because I really was rather incoherent. the bulldog has absolutely nothing to do with this whatsoever. He just pushed my buttons at the wrong time and I blew up. Sorry bulldog.... you got caught in the crossfire.... I apologize for rippin' on you last night. Really.
I'm not a bad person, I'm not hateful, I'm not mean. I'm normally a very happy go lucky kinda guy. I trust everyone right from the start, unless there's a reason not to. I'm willing to go the extra mile on alot of things and most times even on good faith. But as I've said before.... don't ever fuck me. I am the last guy you ever wanna screw over.
Whether it was intentional or just an astronomically amazing collection of bad coincidences, I honestly couldn't say. But that's really all beside the point now. If it really was just a bad set of various happenings that created this situation, then I feel bad for doing all this. But it's really not my problem, and I didn't see any other way of getting this resolved. I've been very patient and I've waited. The way this business was conducted was not good. I have learned from it. I will not make the same mistakes again.
Again, I really hate all of this shit. This should never have reached this level. But this needs to be resolved. Principle is everything to me and I can't just let it go, especially when it's MY name that's being destroyed here. I simply cannot allow that to happen.
and that's my last speech on the subject. ;-)
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