Originally Posted by psili

I've read other's peoples' posts who validate that drugs can actually help. And I'm not saying they can't. Hell, antibiotics were a godsend to humans. However, now they're overly abused and in many cases make the immune system weaker to newer strains of infection.

In your case, I'd stay on the meds if you think it makes you feel better, if that's what YOU feel is right. However, you started a thread asking the question how to cope; meaning you're not sure if your current path of therapy is the right way.

And judging from what you just wrote (if I'm wrong, forgive me), your mental state predates pubescence and is caused by early life trauma (in one way or another; upbringing / environment, etc.). In either case, all it may take is coming to terms with something horrible. Admitting it happened / apologizing to someone who caused you harm, voicing out loud things that wholly bind your soul into tension may help.

Again, I know not your situation or where you've been or are at. It's just my $.02.