Hey babe, I can't proclaim to know everything about being a kid...... I was a good kid. I wasn't and am not close to either of my parents. But I got to be VERY close to my husband's dad and he had alot of the same problems with his heart and such. He had his first major heart attack at the age of 39, I think is right.
I can say this much, ALOT of that is hereditary, not to scare YOU, but you should learn from this to take better care of yourself. Just go to your dad and tell him what you are telling us.
My husband and his father did ALOT of making up the last few years and it helped SOO much. Just go to him and tell him you love and respect him. You'll be surprised. He doesn't blame you at all more than likely. As parents, we expect there to be problems and such, no kid is ever going to be perfect.
The fact that you acknowledge YOUR mistakes will mean the world to him and let him know you are ok and that you are growing up. We parents have a tendency of not wanting to see our babies as grown ups........ but it means so very much to us when the young adults come to us and say "You know what Mom (or Dad) I love you and I want to thank you for putting up with me all those years." You will freak when you see a big smile on his face....... and you will get that, trust me, you will.
He raised you decent and your being here and telling us of your concern for your dad, the man that fed and clothed you, that loved you and stood by you....... your letting US know how you feel about him, says to ME, that you are a decent person. So in saying this how could YOU ever be responsible for this? It ain't like that baby......... it just ain't. He raised you to be caring, now go show him what a fine job he did in raising you and tell HIM what you are telling us now.
