Well lots of you probably havent, but i know i have, and it doesnt feel good!
look at the date on
THIS POST - GFY GOODBYE
About 3yrs ago i couldnt pay my rent and was given a 2 week notice to get out if i didnt pay something, couldnt pay my cable bill to stay online, couldnt afford to keep my car on the road.
A time when i would have to beg, borrow or steal anything i needed, paying for it was not an option.
I look back at this time and realize how hard it was for a few people to stand by me, and god damn im greatful!
My GF at the time i was with for 6yrs at the time, at some point must have wondered why she was with such a loser! why didnt she just move on? i think i would have, i know thats a bad thing to say. Since then i have engaged her and i buy her every little thing her heart desires. With her for 9yrs now!
My family really put up with a lot. They dont have any money and really needed me to kick in for bills, and i didnt, making it very tough for them. I know they are parents and *have* to do that stuff, but in return i now pay the taxes on their house every 3mo (about $8k per year), and today (jan 22nd, my birthday!) we are awaiting a delivery of a furniture set for the living room, and a painter to show up to paint the house ... on me!
Money cant buy happiness i know, but it can make some peoples lives a bit easier and more comfortable. Thanks to me now my fiance has that feeling that she never has to reach in her pocket for a dime! nomatter what she wants! Sounds stupid for me to do this, but it really makes me feel good to return that favor.
Also thanks to me, my parents get to sleep a bit easier knowing im eating the biggest portion of their bills! They too deserve some enjoyment in life, and at this point id be more than happy if it came at my expense.
As a result of my willingness to splurge on items for other people, im not saving much compared to what i *could* be saving. However i make enough money now where i can do all my splurging and still have a good amount left over to save! I will be working on this, i know nothing is definate and at any time i can be right back at the bottom, so id like to save a bit more to protect myself in the future.
I dont really agree with personal earnings disclosure, but since i disclosed when i was making nothing, and most of you have known me through my troubled times, as well as the sake of this argument ...
NOT counting my adult income (which is very little at this point) i grossed over $150,000.00 this year, and the future looks promising! Doesnt sound like much compared to what some people on this board make, but i am fucking loveing it! making me feel very good about myself.
There are 3 reasons i typed this long ass emotional post.
1. for those at their bottom now, understand that it only gets better! dont give up, keep kicking and pushing and you will feel better for it!
2. for those that have been at their bottom, dont forget who stood by you when you were down! dont be afraid to remind them how much you appreciated those times.
3. i just felt like ranting since its my Bday today, so deal with it, heh
