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Originally Posted by notjoe
Well said.. i used to do a lot of coke for a few years.. While i havent given up the drug completely i'd only do it once in a while...last time i did it was new years eve of last year.
What got me out was seeing what i was doing to myself, my family, what i had before and what i had lost...It was a rude awakening but something i needed.
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I still do it on occasion but it's nothing like it used to be. Hell, in 2003 I spent probably close to 30K on coke. Personally, I had to look at what it was doing to my family as well. My wife and I were both junkies and our kids were suffering from our addiction. We'd stay up 48 hours snorting rails and then act like assholes to the kids for being kids all because WE were tired and out of lines. I had to take a step back and analyze what the fuck I was doing. If you can learn to handle it, and not let it take control then it's not so bad. The only time I will do it now is if I am out of town or something and there is no wife and no kids around. I won't do it at home anymore at all. It's a disease when it gets to the addiction stage. It's like the flu or cancer or whatever. The key is not to let it get to the disease stage and keep it light.