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I'm not wanting to be with other men...I mean, if he were ok with it, sure...but I know he's not, and so it wouldn't be fun for me.
Why is it that men can separate sex and love, but they can't accept that some women can, too? Seems like a wicked double standard to me...he knows that having sex with someone else doesn't mean he loves me any less-and since I am aware and in agreement with the situation, it isn't a betrayal. But I can't know that, too?
I'm basically getting punished for trusting him implicitly. Isn't that fucked up?
And men lie just as much as women do...you have to consider the history here....in 13 years of friendship and 5 years of being together, four of them married, I have NEVER lied to him. Not once. I just try to avoid doing anything I wouldn't feel comfortable with him knowing, and that's how I live my life. I have high standards of behaviour, and I expect a lot from myself, and I expect a lot from other people. And HE is the one who has been dishonest in the past, not ME! But he has the nerve to not trust ME?
Now he wants to read this thread..."to understand where I am coming from" he says. Bullshit-he wants to read it because he doesn't trust me. I TELL him where I am coming from, and HE decides that isn't what I really mean because of his own insecurities.
I am not going to live like I did something wrong-because all I did was trust him completely and tell him so. If that's wrong to him, then maybe he's the one who doesn't deserve MY trust. Maybe he feels guilty.
I will tell you this...now I don't trust him either, because he's sneaky, and he invaded my privacy and disrespected our relationship by snooping in my personal correspondence.
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