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I didn't understand swinging either for a long time. I couldn't imagine being comfortable with the man I love touching someone else. But it's about being comfortable with who I am, and wanting to explore things WITH him, and grow together and experiencing things as a couple. Realisticly (sp?) most men cheat anyway....and in time he may have been one of them. Instead, we do it together, and there is no secrecy and no reason to "cheat". I'm confident that I am a great catch, and the only way he would ever leave me for another woman is if he genuinely fell in love, and that would happen anyway-you can't help who you fall for. I'd rather not worry about something I have no control over-it's kinda like worrying about gas prices. You need gas, no matter the price, so why even bother looking? lol And if he truly fell in love with someone else, I would want him to be happy-because that's what love, at it's core, is.
That said-we have two little girls together, so it's not as easy as just walking away. A break, though, may be what we need. I don't know.
It's like...if someone put a straightjacket on you because they were afraid you'd kill yourself, even though you never gave an indication you were going to....wouldn't you still want the damn thing off...even though you have no intention of hurting yourself? And if you did manage wo wiggle out of it, would you run out and kill yourself, just because you got out of it?
That's how I feel. Stifled and smothered. And I'm a good woman...I flirt, but I don't cheat. I've know this man since I was 14 and I've never done a thing to deserve this.
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