OK IM HONESTLY ANSWERING THOSE 20 QUESTIONS NOW from
http://www.gamblersanonymous.org/20questions.html
QUESTION #1 :
Did you ever lose time from work or school due to gambling?
ANSWER: yes.. Of course. Thats an easy one. When I was in school doing graduate work back in 1995 Id skip class and drive to the casino. I was 30k in debt by the time I graduated. Had no job and 30k in credit card debt all from gambling. Thank god for Porn.. Paid it off, said Id never gamble big in a casino again. For the most part I never did. Casino action never appealed to me much since then. ITs been all about sports gambling since then. And no, i dont really loose any work over it, casuse i watch the games as I post on GFY and work. So if anything it made me stay home and work more..
QUESTION #2
Has gambling ever made your home life unhappy?
ANSWER: Yep. My wife told me she would leave me. It was a big stress back in the day when I was still working in healthcare before porn and when I was right out of school with this debt and just starting out.. The debt and habbit really had a strain on me, and our relationship back when affording the habbit was a problem.. The scarry thing is now, that im blowing thousands more away than ever before, but becasue our fininacial situation is good, the effects or notcing how serious my gambling is has been hidden.. Simply becasue I make enought to cover my action and losses.. It kind of like a rich person being addicted to Coke or drugs. They dont see it being a problem since they can afford it.. Its harder to realize its damage.
QUESTION #3
Did gambling affect your reputation?
ANSWER: No not really. In fact I gamble more than my friends, and they all just think im crazy.. AS for my work reputaion, yeah. I think most people in this industry know I gamble. I dont think its hurt me. Luckly working in an industry of Sin, people dont really judge ya for gambling. I think that helps when it comes to healing.
People in our biz dont really turn their backs on ya when something like this happens. Instead they give a hand to help.
QUESTION #4
Have you ever felt remorse after gambling?
ANSWER: Yes.. A lot... So much in 2001 it made me depressed. Took a good month or so to snap out of it. Quit gambling then got back in again. I think of my Grandfather who saved every nickle and dime working as a waiter all his life as a Chineese Imagrant.
He worked 60-70 hour weeks, for low wages. Yet he still was able to buy a home, and put my mom and her sister and brother through college.. He worked so hard for every penny. It almost makes me cry thinking how hard he had to work to set a future for us all and then look in the mirror at how much I blow TENS of THOUSANDS of dollars. It sickens me. And has actually put me in clinical depression at one point.
QUESTION #5
Did you ever gamble to get money with which to pay debts or otherwise solve financial difficulties?
Answer: No not anymore. But as of late ive been telling myself, one more bet, just so I can cut the losses from this year, month, week.. So I guess I change my answer to again, YES..
Hmmmm.
So far im not doing too well.
Lets answer some more here..........