Well are you? Do you take your business seriously? And if so.... how seriously? Is too serious a bad thing? Where do you draw the line? Where is the release point?
I ask this because of something that has happened to me.
The last few weeks have been a complete fucking nightmare for me. And totally unnecessary. I've been in the hospital.... I've been on heavy prescriptions.... I've been down and completely out of commission because of this shit.
Well, I figured out.... it wasn't the goddamned fish. It was me.
I did this entirely to myself. I've been covered with hives and having serious chest pain and all kinds of bad shit.... because of my own mind. There has to be limitations. Taking your business seriously is a good thing.... and stress is a good thing... but the kind of stress I've had for the last 2 weeks + is not the good kind. And there's absolutely no reason for it.
I found the solution to all of this last night. Had me a serious little heart to heart with my own brain. Because I had to know why the fuck this was causing me so many problems.... PHYSICAL problems.... it's not like I've never had to deal with shit before... I have a pretty ugly background.... I've been through a war... if that isn't stress, nothing is.
So, what I learned was.... I gotta let go a little. I can't save the world. I can't do everything overnight. And I don't need to worry about why. Because it just doesn't matter.
Take your business seriously in order to advance it.... but know when to draw the line. 3 days at a time in a chair working nonstop is NOT the answer. Don't let this happen to you. Or rather... don't let yourself do this to you. I guarantee you will burn the fuck out... and fast.
The mind can be a horrible thing if it gets out of control.... mine turned into a fucking monster. But thankfully I got it back last night before it completely snapped. It was very close....
That's all I got...
