While I only met you and Mark briefly in person, I'm deeply saddened by your loss. If there's anything at all that we can do to help you in any way, please don't hesitate to call upon us any time. I lost a beloved loved one during Thanksgiving when I was 12 and my family haven't celebrated the holiday since. It can be very rough on families to lose someone during a 'festive' season. My heart truly goes out to you and yours. Be strong, but don't forget it is important to grieve. I did a quick search and found
this book on Amazon, I know what a difficult personal turmoil you face.