09-26-2004, 02:50 AM
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I just got finished posting this in another thread about depression.. it's fits here too, so I'm gonna do a cut and paste.. btw.. pot was my favorite drug of all time!
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Allow me to share a little something with you all..
Since the age of about 13 (I'm 54 now), I have been high on something. Pain killers the doctor gave me for cramps started the whole thing, then I went to alcohol, and all type's of other drugs, if it got you high, then I took it.
I quit all of this about 10 yrs ago.
I got one of the biggest surprises of my life after I quit.. all of a sudden I was happy.. for no reason.
I didn't know what to think, because I had never experienced this particular feeling before. I thought happiness was something you felt when you were high. It took me a long time to start feeling this way (weeks, maybe as long as a couple months)
I had slips now and then over the last 10 years.. especially when I would get pain medicine from the doctor for one thing or another.
One thing that became crystal clear to me was that drugs and alcohol surpressed the natural happy feeling I was supposed to be feeling all those years.
Every time I slipped it would become clearer and clearer to me that this was indeed the case.
There must be something in drugs that interfere with the normal brain processes.
The last 3 or 4 times I slipped, I took notice of how long it took for me to get back to normal.. on pain medicine, it took 3 days, and with alcohol, it took over a week.
The doctor had told me that the pain medicine wasn't addictive, which what I realise meant that I wouldn't have withdrawl symptoms.. maybe that's why it only took 3 days to get back to normal.
What I felt during the times I slipped and during the withdrawl time was a little depression, but more of a lack of interest in things. I didn't like losing this at all because this interest in things is what made my life so happy..
Anyone have any experiences like this?
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