as some of you know i study dentistry medicin (i know i dont most a lot here but i have to shedule very carefuly every mins i have to work on the company that i run with a friend, so no time to boards at all) and this year was really terrible in what concerns the work i had to develop on the university. tight shedules, loads and loads of exams but all went ok less one fucking exam where i failed on the pratical and i wasn't allowed to do the theorical exam. well fucks it i tought, after all it was only the first exam i ever failed in 3 years.
the problem comes when i decided to try to transfer myself to the public university again. on the first year i did't make it cause of some points i wasn't able to enter there and i went to the private university (that year i think i needed 18.3 from 0/20 scale to make it). on that private university all has been great, but its private even its considered by portuguese dentists the best and the university that graduates better professionals because its very hard and demanding, private universities dont have the same reputation than public ones for the eyes of the major persons. other problem is that on private i pay 430 euros per month to study and on public i pay 700 per YEAR.
this are just some positive and negative points i have because on my mind i have loads of them.
but what is really driving me crazy is that today i just knew that i entered the public university but because that FUCKING unique discipline i failed and i could fail 2,3,4 not sure but THAT specific one sent me back to the 3rd year again on public university . the fun part is that i will have only two disciplines to do during the year while this year on private i did 15 disciplines during the year. but because that one i cant go to the 4th year like i should. i have made 2 years "vacations" before i entered university and when i entered destistry medicin i said to me that i would't allow myself to fail. well i didn't failed but i dont know if i can handle going back one year because it will be the 3rd year i lose and my degree is of 6 years total
i am wasted, confused and sorry if my toughts are confused here. i rarely post even if i read a lot and i even hardly talk about my personal life but i dont know what to do and who knows maybe someone from outside can give me an opinion that will lead me in a decision because this will really change my life