From her blog.... ROLF!!!
9-16-04:
I recently made the comment that I don?t typically find the average black woman physically attractive and the recipient of this comment proceeded to berate me with accusations of being a victim of ?self-hatred.?
Self-hatred?
Alright, last I checked, I don?t exactly look like the average black woman, so how is it self-hatred when I am not attracted to the average black woman? I spent my early years of life surrounded around hordes of yellow and white-skinned people with wavy hair and sharp features. Isn?t it normal for a person to develop their own personal ideas of beauty based on the faces they admired and looked up to as a child? I?m in no way a psych student but that just seems like common sense to me. Why should I have to be ashamed to find my own mutt-esque features attractive?
But never mind me and my own obsession with myself and people who look like me. Let?s instead focus on black people?s hatred of themselves!
On two separate occasions I?ve had black women confront me for the way that I wear my hair, wild and curly a-la-Scary-Spice. One woman actually had the nerve to tell me that I was embracing the style of white men! But please tell me why both of these women were sporting the oh-so-popular African-American ?perm? or ?relaxed? style of hair?!
So I?m trying to be white when I wash my hair and let it air dry as it may? but when you leave your hair unclean for 2 weeks so that you can glob a jar full of chemicals on it to essentially make your hair ?scared straight? and then strangle it around some curlers and heat blast under a metal dome before further searing it with a sadistic array of irons and sealing the tormented follicles with expensive and rarely black-made hair products in some retarded attempt to mimic the hair of an Asian or East Indian? do I really need to finish the thought?
If that isn?t self-hatred, then I don?t know what is.
-The YellowChick (9-11-2004)
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