Napolean

you were hearing voices daily and seeing the most fucked up shit in flashes of like 15 second to 3 minutes.. like dead bodies or demons floating all around..

im drunk, so i dunno why im asking, but when i was in high school ,this was a daily occurance for me..

went to psychotherepy for 5 months because of that shit, eventually lying to my therepist because i couldnt take talking about it anymore.

over the years ive gotten a lot better and my hallucinations are very rare now... they still happen.. but nothing like they use to be, and im grateful

i couldnt ever live like how i was before, but yeah.. im drunk and whenever im like this it gets me thinking..

what would you do in my situation back then?
what would you think?
how would you view the so called "God"
how would you respect your parents who were convinced you were insane?
how would you think of the other kids in school who thought you were crazy?
would you really respect the gothic fucks who admired you for the mental torture you had to live through?

i wish i could put this shit past me, but it keeps coming up, i dunno why, i guess its the fear that at any time it could come back just as bad or worse than it once was..

god damn... why the hell am i asking gfy about this?

but fuck it.. i need to talk to someone..

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