I've been 100% loyal to Alana at all times. I'd been with girls before her but I have not so much as kissed another woman since the day we first went out. I've never hit her, I've never ridiculed the things she's wanted in her life and I've never lied to her. When I am out of her site, she knows with absolute certainty that her love is safe with me and that I will be coming home to her. I would never dream of betraying her trust in even the most minor of ways. I wonder if she will find that with any other person in this world. I know she will never find anyone that loves her more than I do.
I think this will answer your questions. Read this over again.
Dude -
I went through this....
...when I was 19. This is the type of thing you need to experience in life. There are many, MANY women who would love to have you as their man.
www.lavalife.com
No kidding, just go on there and browse the listings.
Couples meet, fall in love, and rarely stay together forever. Most break up, drift apart, divorce, or OJ each other.
Such is life.