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Originally posted by ytcracker
i did so much x and there is no doubt i regret it now
i leaped way beyond the biweekly, recreational use - i used to do about 4-5 pills at a time regularly - the entire month of november 2000 i rolled every day that month - i even ate thanksgiving dinner rolling balls
i havent really wanted to come to terms with the fact that my excessive ecstasy usage probably prompted my brain to turn into a mushy puddle of shit, however looking back on before i even used it though i exhibited some early signs of bp/depression/whatever
i think if i would have kept that shit in check though i probably wouldnt be in the dire mental stress that i am now
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Same here man. A ten pack was a Friday to Sunday party for me. It took me a while to come to grips with it as well. Before we took drugs to escape reality...now're were forced to use them to live in reality. And fuck, wouldn't you know...the ones meds from the Pharmacy are a heck of a lot more expensive.
My lows aren't so low these days, and my manic episodes just make me look like a workaholic. Give your scripts some time to kick in and you'll be back on track.