i appreciate your input gobigtime
im not telling myself that i cant live without these meds, i know all about how the drug companies work, its all about maintaining, rebilling, and not curing shit.
i look forward to not depending on meds, and i have tried to ween off them in the past ...but when that panic came rearing back, scaring the fuck out of ya, ... its easier to take the pill.
I will always try to ween off this stuff, but for now, (might have missed it in the thread) im trying to get off the xanax. When i got into this biz, sitting on my ass, gaining weight, working 18 hours a day, took a turn for the worse and had to add xanax to the lineup. Now im limiting my online work and giving it to others to do and im just managing it. when im filming i have no probs at all .. being active is definitely an antidote to anxiety.
so first step is to get off the xanax, then, i can think later on about lowering the dosage of paxil or effexor which my doctor is now recommending.
Id love to be off the meds, but if the panic recurs when i am eating right, excercising daily, off the xanax, ill continue to take ssri's or snri's. Even though pharmaceutical companies are scum, these meds have allowed me to function whereas otherwise i was hanging out in the closet thinking the sky was falling