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Originally posted by Mikey_219Inc
i dont want to discredit anyone who has legit panic disorder and is living without meds ... i think thats fucking great. But when you first have them, you dont know what the fuck is going on ... healthy as an ox in the emergency room. Im not ready to be off the meds yet, thats just me ... didnt mean to single anyone out about "misunderstanding the difference" between anxiety attacks and panic disorder ...
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Hey man no problems here
I know exactly what you mean about when they first occured...I can tell you horror stories about where I didn't leave the house for over a month..emergency room trips 3-4 times a week...how I became afraid to go to sleep because I thought I was going to die..got to the point I was admitted to the hospital due to exhaustion.
When I finally did venture out of the house to go anywhere I wouldn't drive, I had to know where the nearest hospitals were enroute to wherever it was we were going...I was a total fucking mess.
My family didn't think it was such a big thing until they watched me first hand go through it. Once they saw how it really was for me they were totally shocked.
The most I get now is heart racing a bit of hyper ventilation but I recognize it now...it's kinda like being a kid watching a scary movie for the first time...and now I'm all grown up and know that the monsters were just men in costumes...that's what the panic attacks are like for me now.
I know they feel real..and my body is reacting to it, but I also know that other than that, I'm not dying...I'm not having a heart attack..that if I just lie down and relax it will all be over soon enough.
But I tell you seriously...if I ever got back into that acute phase again...you'd see my ass downing a handful of xanax and some buspar...LOL..I just pray to God it never gets to that point again.