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never really thought about it aside from joking. red (half breed but just red enough) don't crack despite a lifetime of smoking and atrocious diet re caloric intake/food table standards and poor sleep habits
work out like a fiend. ALWAYS stretch to keep flexible. drink way more water than is normal for my body size
read a lot. downtime, peace, taking time to look up and think between pages/chapters and all that. I actually have reading glasses for that, my vision went to shit last year lol
still most people think I'm more than a decade younger than I am. that's normal for the women in my fam
I play with young k!ddos and try to teach them stuff, learn from them. learn from old people too, love listening to stories that teach me a lot just from broader lessons in lived experience
I work. without that structure of bringing in the dollaz I think stuff would fall apart, both practically and in terms of mental well-being
honestly I'm not shocked you look old. alcohol ravages the skin/face/body with overuse over extended time. also no doubt played a role in various ailments you've discussed the past (all of which list alcohol abuse as significant precursors)
Huggles, in more than one thread recently you've focused on crackheads. do you understand that your, more socially acceptable addiction is actually harder to kick? with proper supports in place recovery from crack is far easier than getting alcohol out of your life
as you attain a new place I hope you seek out some external supports as I don't think without support you can do this alone
I mean real world support, not just posting here or anywhere cuz it's a safe replica for actually engaging in real life and working to change yours
wish you the best, gonna be a steep climb up. just fucking do it. you know, somewhere deep down, that you can and being 'old' is not an excuse
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