Originally Posted by nico-t

All of them together don't post nearly as many political threads as you do on your own. You're completely brainwashed into an unhealthy obsession that is forcing you to blindly keep on posting propaganda every single day for 3 years straight.

That's why the OP dedicated this thread to you, it's pretty simple. But you haven't answered the question aimed at you unfortunately, you instantly point the finger to others. I'm curious to the real answer so could you answer? Thanks!

Originally Posted by nico-t

All i see are people concerned about their own fucking pockets. It's so in the open, when a politician goes on air in a live show, they always make a simple stupid fucking joke about how they grab tax money and everyone in the studio is laughing. The fact that that is the first thing they say, disguised as a joke, is a fucking sign they don't think about ANYTHING else. Seeing politicians on TV makes me SICK.

The whole politic world is rotten to the core in every country. It makes me fucking sick. I will be voting for the guy who's film is never seen by ANYONE who's critisizing it, who's film and person is being DEMONIZED by his 'fellow' politicians without seeing anything of this fucking film, who's film is an argument for other fucks to get in the lime light. I don't give a fuck about anything anymore, but the opposition. And Wilders IS the opposition. I don't want a fucking mosque in my neighborhood (which is already a fact).

If you have ANY fucking brains vote WILDERS. You don't have to agree with every point he makes. When you want to agree with every point a party makes you have to vote for the fucking VVD or PVDA. But how many points thay get through? NONE! Vote for the EXTREME, vore for Mozart. One man CAN make a difference, look at PIM FORTUYN. When something like that happens to Wilders we will rise and take over the dickless government and kill the dickless killer. I know I fucking will. We been sleeping for too damn long.

Originally Posted by nico-t

Seriously. When im typing this i see a figure next to me, watching how i type. When i look to my right, he dissapeares but another one stands at a table a lil further from me.
Now as i type this i saw some fuck leaning next to me on the table, with one hand next to my keyboard. It's veery weird, I am alone but it seems like there are alot of people surrounding me now.

FUCK!! I just saw some fuck with his elbow on the table next to me. Very fucking weird. And there he is again. FUCK

Originally Posted by nico-t

90% of a random day i am a depressed motherfucker. I am mentally fucked up. But I am doing solo therapy ya know... only way I am myself is when im drunk. When im drunk i get loose, spontanious.... loose and happy... only times when im happy is when im drunk...

Originally Posted by nico-t

i need some input on this. Made a thread on another board a few days ago, these are the cliffnotes til now:
- last week i went out & was extremely smashed on alcohol, brought a girl home and when i tried to fuck her i couldnt get it up, which i hadnt experienced before.
- the day after that i thought about it too much. That night I went out again, hooked up with the same chick again and did a car session.. It looked promising until some interruptions (cop went by, chick brought up condoms), I started thinking again, result was that this was unsuccesful too.
- Next day: naturally i was really down this day and it was becoming an obsession.. chick wanted to meet up again, we did but i really wasnt in the mood so dropped her off.
- Monday: psychologically the ultimate low, thought about it so much that it really fucked me up in my head.
- Yesterday: she was horny again, so i thought 'just do it' otherwise id be walking around with this too much. It was a sex date, nothing else so i started thinking about it again. It was an afternoon session at my place so no alcohol this time, but i definately wasnt ready, i put too much pressure on myself (she noticed this too).. we were busy for a pretty long time ended in the shower, and as i was feeling more relaxed it started to work a bit again but not entirely. So to look positively at this it was a half-success.
My mind is a roller coaster now with ups and downs. After the last session i was surprisingly cool about it, even laughing about it because its just stupid your brain can affect you so much, and i didnt mind so much anymore, i thought hey i know the shit works i just gotta get over it.

What should i do... maybe try it first again with another chick, maybe even order an escort or something? Because i dont want the next time to fail again with the same chick, thats also fucked up for her... How do i get this out of my mind? any techniques?
(btw some might say im crazy im sharing all this here but i don't care, i can use all the pointers i can get)