No, I read it all but your personal saga just is not relevant to the war zone. I had a lot of hard times in my younger years too but I never thought of comparing those hard times to being a war refugee.
Faced with abandoning what I have then starting over and picking up a gun and fighting for my home -- I would probably decide, as a man with no family and children, to make my stand.
I can also understand a man sending his family away and then fighting for his home and his human rights.
I can accept the judgment of a man to just leave with his life -- I don't think that as cowardice but just the desire to escape harms way.
As a young man I ended living in the back seat of my car a few times and in retrospect -- it was mainly my own fault -- I wasn't trying to hide from bombs or a hostile army
