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I am in real life a girl who cannot get pleasure from sex if there is not light forced role play or light spanking from my partner. I had terrible problems in it with my first husband and i am glad my partner i am now living with is able to play such games exactly as i need. I met several girls who are in similar situation. I hate violence, i feel very sorry for each woman she was forced to do anything she did not want to do, i am scared of being really raped from anybody different than my partner, i need to believe my parner he will not start this game when i do not want it, because i know it would hurt me much mentally.
Can you imagine my situation when i was 18 years old? There was no internet, i was feeling i am the only different girl at the world, that i cannot share my thoughts with anybody because they would tell me i am sick, i protect rapist, or in the worst case some ugly man could try to rape me in real what i did never want.
Maybe i would not be alive now if internet did not start. Who knows. First i browsed sites as girl's named Lorelai, i found Laura Werner's Spanking Corner, some other national ones and i knew i am not alone. Then i met my today parner and i turned to enjoy my life. But i feel a little bit shame till now that i get aroused in situation which would hurt many other women at my place. On the opposite it hurts me very much when somebody compares me, my partner and my friends to some ugly criminals. Difficult to find the truth, isn't it?
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