Originally Posted by Ferus

Not trying to be funny/rude or troll - BUT!
Dont you think you would be better of just taking a lot of long walks, your mental state taken into account. I dont think you are in a situation where you need to stress your that much. Walks (1-2 hours) daily do wonder for your joints, core and mental Health.

In psychology you Work with two ways of mental Work at the deepest level; "bottom up" vs. "top Down"

From what you have written about yourself, you need to do much more "bottom up" mental Work, and walking is a great way to do that (splitting Wood and doing gardening as well - but not everyone have the chance to do that)

Not being a troll here - I am 100% genuine concerned