Pretty messed up disease - good luck...
Perhaps you can volunteer for a study (get treatment and help science while getting free cannabis).
I honestly never thought I would see the day when cannabis would be legalized in any State, so I am quite heartened about the changes to laws in many States, and now I feel it may only be a matter of time until cannabis is made legal nationally, especially as the States which have already legalized start realizing some of the benefits of legal cannabis, and the fears that some had will prove to be unfounded.
ADG