The past year +++ taught me something.. I love being free.. My ex was a huge pile of chains on me and I've not ever let a woman be that on me, before.. and being employed I've only done it once for three months. That was chains on me, too.
Well I have been talking with this new woman. She is half italian, amazing face, from the east coast with the east coast accent that murders me, amazing cook, very high income, 5'1 / 110 with D cups, long hair --- and now she finds out I will have to have a housegirl for now since I will not be able to drive, and because I just need one .. And she doesn't want to talk because of it.
Hell. She knew I like to have a house girl Since we started talking. Well we're extremely attracted to each other - like tractor beam - but I have learned my lesson. I will give up anything for freedom.
You know I have had some hard times. I've almost been killed- several times. I've lived poor and I've had money. But I have never been a drain on society, cheated anyone or anything like that.
How many of you can say that you've not had anyone to answer to since age twelve? I quit school at that age and haven't had to work or anything else. And I've had some nice automobiles and hell I had my own house at fifteen. I've had some of women most of you will never dream of (ever if you have 1000 porn girls and all of that) and wouldn't believe I've had if I told you
Well
Sigh
I am at the end of how I can be how I've been. I have to either man up and start hustling something that's not two bit OR I have to become a criminal. When I was younger I was a criminal and I lived well. I never got caught because I am not greedy and I'm extremely careful.
The thing is - quick money NEVER lasts - no matter how much you try to invest or save it. It's like it is cursed. Or IS it? Maybe I was just too young, before. Maybe now I would put the money right and not have to do it forever.
My only problem is drinking. No drugs. And I can handle women (except there have been three.. that have gotten to me. After the first it was 5 years till it happened. After that one it was two.)
I'll ramble some more later, just took my last Adderall and want to write my last coherent lucid thoughts while I can still articulate anything I'm thinking
