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I was having some hard times finding a job with the portfolio of mine - I tried to step out of adult , without success - the agencies and the companies were saying: we don't do such things - but that's an old story of mine. I got back to the adult and found job: again designing adult sites....
So I had to accept what I do, and what life offers me. I have nothing to offer in my folio but adult. I also draw comics and pinups - all of them cocks, tits and semen inside. I worked for a gaming company as concept artist for a month, then when I saw that I can earn more money with drawing stuff on freelance base, I quit. Then as usual the purchases with mainstream illustrations and sites just stopped, and people started to ask for some naked stuff. Then for some action. "Can you draw my girlfriend - I'd like you to depict her being peed while three guys bang her - her whole body drenched in urine and cum....? "
- The fuck?! No! - I don't draw such things!!!
- $300 ?
- Okay... I will make an exception....send me your gf photo - then the exceptions started to be something like a regular base and I'm wrapped in porn, without option to turn back to the mainstream - even if I want to. Finally I managed to bulge my drawing porn folio that much , so friends gave me advice to make a site with these to earn some cash of that... With drawing porn. Making design for porn sites. Banners for porn sites. Galleries for porn sites. Porn. We pay you to do that - it's porn.
I blame the money. I feel degraded, because I feel like I don't have any choice.
P.S. I don't draw poo
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