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Originally Posted by Shotsie
It's hard to say without knowing the specifics of the situation. I'm assuming you're at a point where you no longer want to drink or do drugs and no longer want to be sober, either. You'll continue to function, as a good many substance abusers do, on a marginally competent level, but eventually things will fall apart. You know what they say: jails, institutions and death. The first step would be to try to get into a detox somewhere assuming you're physically addicted to whatever it is you're taking. This is good though, at least you realize you have a problem, and that's the first step to recovery.
I lost a lot of friends, and some family, to this shit
so I kind of have an idea of what it's like. |
this is not about drugs, although there is a drug i should stop using. its about making efforts in various facets of life.
Most things in life require work. relationships, careers, health. Even billionaires have to work to be happy.
I simply have no work ethic. What efforts i make result in half ass results in everything i do. whether its buying crappy christmas presents, finding a crappy job, a building a crappy web site, i cannot do anything well. I either do something half assed, or not at all.
& i seem powerless to fix this. the 12 step people blame drugs. But i've lived 3/4 of my life with no drugs & have the same problem, whether it was homework, sports, dating. My efforts are always shitty, & thus the outcomes.
i am at the point wondering if laziness is genetic & there is nothing i can do about it.