I did the same drank a ton always fucked me up, aa and all that is a cult last January I just did it myself and cant even stand the smell of booze won't go near it. I havent drank in a year plus wouldn't even think of it
AA sux it is a cult a christian cult with a horrible success record if you check true stats, they prey on weak people who are in sickness and withdrawal and vunerable, and that is easy and truely sick. Only way to stop is keep on doing it like you have until you realize it sux too much and stop. Unfortunelty, there is no help at least in the US all rehabs are run and controlled and fully infiltrated by the cult of aa/na and the 12 steps, they don't use science and offer no help in the end, they make a shitpile of money tho from the government, it costs like 2k a day to send you to rehab for 28 days, and costs them probably 1k in overhead.