Originally Posted by damnage

Your faith is like akin to a big oak tree. Very strong for a long time, but eventually the wind WILL blow it down.

Faith needs to be like a reed, able to withstand the winds of the world.

In this respect I think you need to lighten up and recognise how to moderate yourself. I was in a very similar position to your good self. I was brought up to be a very strict Catholic and as result had a stunted upbringing. I naturally snapped and enjoyed a time of hedonistic pursuits. It's an empty life, and gradually I've learnt that it's about finding your faith in Jesus in YOUR way.

Don't feel constrained by complex interpretations. I've done a fair amount of Christological studies and my only conclusion is Pope Benedict surmised "it's all important, but at the end of the day your conscience rules".

Life your life according to the two rules of Jesus.