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damnage · 03-28-2011, 05:24 AM

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Originally Posted by MrMaxwell

Everything is okay... you can have a shitty loser life, because you'll be rewarded, later. Everything you ever enjoyed as a human being, it was a sin. They put fear into you making you believe that anyone not "saved" is going to a hell.

I don't know, then you finally (I have) end up hating christ to the point where you'd like to be the one to hunt the lying motherfucker down, PERSONALLY... but then if you don't believe in him, there's no one to bring to justice for all of these lies you use to live by

The biggest things that woke me up were that the only people who ever programmed me for it were ass backwards fucks who preached all of the time yet lived like, well, not only atheists but extremely atheistic. We love god so much that we're greedy, we judge everyone, we care nothing for loved ones, anything we do that is a sin isn't because it's gods will. . . etc etc . . . Then I see the television evangelists over there going on and on and on about "tithing" and the catholic gay rape church and. God damn.

I think that being programmed, and struggling to come out of it for the past 5-6 years, it's contributed greatly to my drinking problem.

That and realizing just how ridiculously insignificant human beings are. And having to be one. What a god damned sad fucking joke.

One question I could never answer... why does it come so god damned natural to a man ro say God Damn It?!! It feels good, now. For years I wouldn't say it and I'd drive a car over anyone who would. I'd get so mad. I love to curse god, now.

I don't know, I'm just venting. God and jesus destroyed the first twenty some years of my life, not sure if they exist but I doubt it, now, and I'm going to have a much better life now.

I don't have to feel bad about enjoying a face full of female ass and pussy or fucking a woman in her asshole or anything else I do. I don't have to feel bad about eating like a god damned rabid wolf, until I can hardly breathe. I don't have to feel bad if I make a business deal that hurts someone. I don't have to feel bad about wanting to kill bad people. I don't have to feel bad about enjoying killing animals. I don't have to feel bad about anything about me, any more.

If there's a hell for people who fulfill their human nature, fuck that shit, I tried to be one of the christians. All it ever gets me, or anyone else, is more kicks in the face. Except for those christians who get other christians to give money to them - they do real well, don't they?

Guess I'll have to enjoy my other side. But we all know you're either "with god" or "with the devil" and "evil", right? But it's our fault and not whatever created us.. Being a little evil feels good, anyway - part of that nature "something" gave us, so why not enjoy it. I'm going to.

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Your faith is like akin to a big oak tree. Very strong for a long time, but eventually the wind WILL blow it down.

Faith needs to be like a reed, able to withstand the winds of the world.

In this respect I think you need to lighten up and recognise how to moderate yourself. I was in a very similar position to your good self. I was brought up to be a very strict Catholic and as result had a stunted upbringing. I naturally snapped and enjoyed a time of hedonistic pursuits. It's an empty life, and gradually I've learnt that it's about finding your faith in Jesus in YOUR way.

Don't feel constrained by complex interpretations. I've done a fair amount of Christological studies and my only conclusion is Pope Benedict surmised "it's all important, but at the end of the day your conscience rules".

Life your life according to the two rules of Jesus.

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On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?" "What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?" He answered: "'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'" "You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live." But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, "And who is my neighbor?" In reply Jesus said: "A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he fell into the hands of robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, took him to an inn and took care of him. The next day he took out two silver coins and gave them to the innkeeper. 'Look after him,' he said, 'and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.' "Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?" The expert in the law replied, "The one who had mercy on him." Jesus told him, "Go and do likewise." (NIV, Luke 10:25-37 )