I've been thinking about this and decided that since most of the comments so far have been positive then maybe this might be a place to air my ego a bit. Normally I wouldn't open myself up on GFY but there seem to be a few sympathetic ears open this evening.
I've been overweight for around 5 years now. I have a very hard time with it. I'm probably a little smaller than that beautiful girl Mandy, but inside I feel like a beached whale. I had a baby in January and I've felt a little better since then as I'm obviously much smaller all of the sudden. The two things that REALLY bother me about myself are my double chin and the spare tire hanging off my hips. I stare in the mirror at my naked form and wish it would melt away. I HATE THAT I FEEL THIS WAY. My husband loves me just the way I am. I love him just the way he is - also overweight. It doesn't seem to help my self-esteem. It doesn't help that even my Mother says that I was prettier when I was slim. She doesn't mean to be cruel and doesn't know what she is saying as she has exactly the same issues with her body as I have with mine. There are millions of men in the world who don't think women should look like they never eat. So why is it that women as a whole think that we should diet and exercise to be as slim as possible. I have no aversions to eating healthily and exercising in the name of good health. But I am just so tired of hating myself. Girls, you seem so happy with the way you look. Can you guide me to something you did? Something you decided within yourselves? I want so much to be happy being a size 16-18 with a size 38C bosom. I want the happiness back that I felt when I was a size 8-10. I'm so happy with the rest of my life, why can't I be happy about me?
Finished gushing now. Thanks for listening - let the bashing begin.
