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I never realized how great life did I live till 2005
2005 - 2006 was more or less ok, I was superbly excited and working on 150 pct., I spent endless hours in the office, sometimes leaving around 6 in the morning or going directly to college, usually having a program for 14 - 16 hours a day.
Yet it resulted in losing common social contact with people that are the most important to me, that I didn't realize at that time.
2007 - 2009 were the worst years in my life, while enjoying the highest levels of income up to date, traveling the world and enjoying tremendous amounts of sexual activity, the money was only good enough to fund my depression, disgust and post traumatic syndrome (losing a beloved one).
Eventually started to hate my life and went through something as an early mid life crisis.
2010 - so far:
- fixed my body and health
- fixed my spending
- more or less fixed my social ties (it takes time, I just wasn't a part of my people's life anymore)
- fixed my confidence
- actually enjoy and like people again
The drive slowly comes back too so I'm not afraid of anything.
What I also realized is that the energy is in people, if you can keep a good crowd around you, you're on the best way to feel happy (that's how I pretty much lived till 2005).
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